two days ago i went to my first uni (i have mentioned it some time ago that i have not only studied cultural but albo animal sciences). I have not been there since 2006, the last day i remebmer was some exam i took in september. and right after it i started taking my driving lessons. two years later - in 2008 - i got a letter from the university saying that i have been removed from students lists. what a surprise! But my documents (A levels summary and high school diloma) have stayed there for all these years. I didn't need them (had copies), so why bother.. suddenly, on monday i thought that maybe i should go there and go on a little music journey to 2005/2006. i made an apoitment with dean's office fon wenesday.
what did i listen to in 2005? what was my biggest inspiration and love?
antony of course!
i have met someone who loved antony as much as me, and while we were seeing each other for few autumn months we have both been sinking into antony more. i remember lying under the tree close to the uni on saturday, and listening to ant. i remember recording some of his b-sides and sharing them. and i remember one particular album i made. it was called 'the origin of angry inch' (yep, hedwig). the song i have put there were:
1. perry como - catch a falling star
2. eM - to wigh impossible things (the cure cover) here
3. cabaret - electric chair song here
4. the black lips (antony's cabaret) - love letters
5. antony - virgin mary
6. royksopp - what else is there
7. INXS - by my side
8. army of lovers - obsession
9. rafal olbrychski - slodko gorzki here
10. hedwig ost - the origin of love
11. hedwig ost - angry inch
12. hedwig ost - wig in a box
13. hedwig ost - midnight radio
14. coldplay - fix you
soooooo, on wenesday, when i went to the far far far university i was listening to it, but somehow i forgot to put antony's songs onto the playlist. i was riding round the city for good few hours, because i needed to collect some stupid stamps from few libraries, and the whole time i was missing something. i felt absolutley nothing when i saw the campus and the ugly blue, green and red buildings. when i finally finished my adventure with the worst university i have ever heard of, when i finnaly grabbed my docs and left building number 23 'animal sciences building', when i got on the underground and changed the playlist, i randomly put ant on. and then i felt it. a big big kick of memories. i was tranfered to september 2005, i was meeting my ex gf and listen to antony, i was writing what he wrote on his cheek and taking pics, i was thinking that his name would be the one i could tattoo on my body (what i did last year finally), i was thinking that it's so amazing that ant sings my heart out. i kinda fell in love with him. i had dreams with him and about him. he was singin just for me. i went to mazuria and lied on the hammock in the woods and was listening to 'frankenstein', to 'just one star', 'a man needs a maid' and to other rare songs.
and for years frankenstein has become the greatest love song i have ever heard:
just to mention, i was coming home yesterday, after a very good day at the production and of course i listened to antony on the underground. i fucking started to cry. i know, i'm too old for that kind of shit, but he really melts me, he breaks me into thousands little pieces.
you can check the greatest version of fistfull of love and where is my power here, on hennwill's bootleg from warsaw 2009: a kind of stream...
