i get emotional (still)

I miss IAMX. The band I used to love few years ago. I miss the autentic wildness.
I woke up few minutes ago and started to think - is this thing that's now between me and IAMX, something that 'the others' used to call 'growing out of something'?

The further Chris goes, the less interesting he is for me. I'm trying to find the reason. Is it his music? Is it the knowledge I have about his behavior last year? Bit of both maybe. I hate that Sue, Tom and Dean have left the band, I hate the feeling of fakeness this band's been giving me for last two or three years.

Is Chris trying to become the new Bowie? Living on the edge in Berlin, writing s&m songs and wearing leather clothes.
I truly love transgression, but I feel that he's just fake. That Reza (his manager) told him 'yo, Chris, teenage chicks love that'. Well, maybe I've just stopped loving you Chris? ;)

i am the astronaut in the sky

amanda... so you're telling me a fairy tale...?

lot of strange things are happening lately, not that i want to share all of them here. no, no ;) TOO WIERD, belive me, even for me!
Except a huge celeb crush. Who - i really dunno why - brings this song to my mind.

I am the spaceman flying high
I am the astronaut in the sky




and as we're here with all the astronaut, space topics, there is also another song which MUST be reminded in here. By my lovely amanda palmer, whom i have seen live twice in poland, and i want more.

It was almost two years ago. First gig was in wroclaw in a great theater and it was very posh and blah blah blah. Second gig got place two days later, and it was one of those ninja gigs that amanda gives quite often.
It was a mix of stand-up and gig. She inspired me to buy my own uke :)

And as the dresden dolls are back on tour. TOGETHER. and i really would LOVE to see them.. no, it's not 'love to see them'. it's more than that... here is amanda's astronaut.


you are, my love, the astronaut!




got some more space themed songs. Actually i could just paste all the 'ziggy stardust' lyrics in here. but there are some more than special songs among ziggy era. and this is one of them:



keep your 'letric eye on me babe
put your ray gun to my head
press your space face to mine love
freak out in the moonage daydream

DON'T FAKE IT BABY! lay your real thing on me.


[and i'm far far away]

Then I see you standing there

All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Try... Try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people, are really not real at all
The more I learn, the more I learn
The more I cry the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try ohh try
Try... Try... Try... Try

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be, we never will be
And that's wonderful, that's life




perfect.

Sufjan, follow the path

Vesuvius
I am here
You are all I have
Fire of fire
I'm insecure
For it is all
Been made to plan
Though I know
I will fail
I cannot
Be made to laugh
For in life
As in death
I'd rather be burned
Than be living in debt

Vesuvius
Are you ghost
Or the symbols of light
Or a fantasy host?
In your breast
I carry the form
The heart of the Earth
And the weapons of warmth

Vesuvius
The tragic oath
For you have destroyed
What the elegants know
Oracle, I've fallen at last
But they were the feast
Of a permanent blast

Vesuvius
Oh, be kind
It hasn't occurred
No it hasn't been said
Sufjan, follow the path
It leads to an article of imminent death
Sufjan, follow your heart
Follow the flame
Or fall on the floor
Sufjan, the panic inside
The murdering ghost
That you cannot ignore

Vesuvius
Fire of fire
Follow me now
As I favor the host

Vesuvius
Fire of fire
Follow me now
As I favor the ghost

Vesuvius
Fire of fire
Follow me now
As I favor the host

Vesuvius
Fire of fire
Follow me now
As I favor the ghost

Vesuvius
Fire of fire
Follow me now
As I favor your host

Vesuvius
Fire of fire
Follow me now
As I favor the ghost

Vesuvius
Fire of fire
Follow me now
As I favor the ghost

Follow me now
Or follow down

Why does it have to be so hard?
Follow me now
Or follow me down

Why does it have to be so hard?
Follow me now
Or follow me down

Why does it have to be so hard?

and i am not sorry for this part of me

i've discovered why this song (below) is so awesome - because it's like anony's and patrick's collaboration. YEY!