True colors fly in blue and black

(the longest, most scattered, most complex post ever /  overcoming is a hard thing)

Let it go
And so fade away

 


Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
Show me how to fight for now
It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me

I can't ever change without you, you reflect me, I love that about you





you'll come near, I see my future clear

You're such a wonderful person, but you've got problems

Don't look at the carpet, I drew something awful on it

Black me out, I want to piss on the walls of your house

I know what I'm made of

dont you ever even think to try to fuck with me


THAT.

For as long as i hold onto you in these cold arms

I am falling into a chasm 
I'm falling with you in my arms 
No wait, these are your arms 
Your arms of love that I'm falling into 
Is this a vision of love? 

When I was a young boy 
Mama said, "You better watch out for the fall." 
But now that I'm a grown woman 
And I know, I know, I know 
I can see the cold 
I can see the cold to the place where he is born 

Come on baby, let's fall, fall into the chasm 
With me, fall into love 
And I know that the vision, it will never shatter 
For as long as i hold onto you in these cold arms 

There's something in these eyes too close for comfort 
But now that I'm a grown woman 
And I know, I know, I know 
I know the call to the place where it's born 
You can see these arms are big and strong now baby 
Well I'll prove to you these arms can hold you tight 

It's cold, leave baby, it's cold, it's time 
This is a vision of love and i'm freezing 
I'm falling into cold, come on let's go 

...but saying it out loud is hard

It's been a long, long time since I've memorized your face
It's been four hours now since I've wandered through your place
And when I sleep on your couch I feel very safe
And when you bring the blankets I cover up my face
I do love you
I do love you

And when you play guitar I listen to the strings buzz
The metal vibrates underneath your fingers
And when you crochet I feel mesmerized and proud
And I would say I love you, but saying it out loud is hard
So I won't say it at all
And I won't stay very long
But you are the life I needed all along 
I think of you as my brother
Although that sounds dumb
Words are futile devices